don't feel that way.. i know life is not always rose color but i know EVERYTHING in life has a solution except dead..
Look for someone that you feel comfortable with and tell her/he the situation your facing now. Remember no one is worth your life. One day you'll find someone that cares about YOU no matter what. Only time will heal your pain.
I think it would be better if you cry until you get tired you will feel much relief later.
Keep in mind there is a God that loves you just pray to him so those negative suicidal thoughts go away.
Be strong YOU CAN DO THIS!