thankyou for clicking

as you can tell im not great with words
but my doctor said this might help (and im ready to try anything), so...
im 20 and iv felt deppressed for over 3 years now i hate mylife, i hate the lives most peoples live, i look at happy people and envy them i look at sad people and just hate the world even more.
you know the glass half full half empty thing? im the guy whos glass tips over and falls on his crotch so it looks like iv wet myself. i cant help seeing every little thing as depressing

i live with my mum who wants to kick me out i cant go to my dads because he kicked me out 3 months ago, im unemployed living of off incapacity benefits (which makes me eel like scum) im a few peoples friend but none of them are ever there for me, i have a gf which is probably the best thing going for me at the moment.
the thought of getting a job makes me miserable i have tried a few jobs and they made me feel worse, nothing intrests me i have no hobbys, everything just seems boring and mundane, everything i touch seems to turn to crap.
i used to cut and im not sure why iv stopped, im on prozac which like councilling and every other drug does nothing for me, iv wrote about my feelings, iv talked about my feelings iv even tried meditating.

im not sure what im hoping posting this will acheive or what i expect really i guess a bit of support/advice