I just started a new job and I am having trouble learning because I have so much new stuff being thrown at me at once, and I have been really anxious about it even though it is perfectly normal to take a long time to learn this stuff and it is perfectly acceptable to make mistakes. Today was not a good day from the very beginning and when I had my lunch break I decided to go home because I was on the verge of a nervous break down. I thought if I went home and cried for a little bit I would feel better and could go back to work. The whole hour passed and I hadn't calmed down so I called in to work to say I couldn't come back for the rest of the day. I immediately went to sleep because I hadn't slept much the night before, and my boyfriend found me asleep when he got home and thought I had quit my job. I told him I just took the afternoon off but he was still kind of mad about it. Later on we were about to watch a movie and I just couldnt hold back the tears anymore, so I tried to explain to him what was going on at work and how it is making me feel but he was really horrible about it.He said there is no reason for me to be nervous about it (in a mean way, not a reassuring way) and he did nothing to console me at all. I told him he just doesnt understand what it is like to have anxiety and he got really offended and he acts like I am just making excuses. I don't know how to get him to understand anxiety and the fact that you can't control when it happens even when you know the thing you fear is stupid. How do you get someone to understand what it is like to experience paralyzing anxiety? I am not a lazy person but I think he thinks I just don't want to work. I want to work more than anything in the world, I want to make money and contribute and not sit around doing nothing all day, but this anxiety keeps me from doing anything.