meant to say it was my dog i goofed sorry flower12356

i feel guilty because of the death of my cat. i lived on a 9 lane trafic street (boulevard) and i let my cat go outside and she got hit by a car. i was distraught!
the best thing i can tell you is, have you ever thought about getting another pet.
i love animals and i feel incomplete without them.

Don't feel guity! It wasen't your fault!

Hi flower12356, I know how u are feeling. I am going thru the same thing. My dog was fine, I had to move in with my boyfriend and his family (who constantly fought, drank, etc.) I felt bad for all my dogs(3), but had no place to go. All of a sudden, one morning, my one baby was so sick, I immediately brought him to the vet,and he died the next day. They said it was kidnry and renal failure, I dont beleive that.God forbid, I finally found a place that would allow my babies(dogs),I was so glad to get away from them people. But, the worst wasnt over for me...within 5 mos. after my Crashie died, my other dog, Baby Boo Boo passed. I feel so guilty, because I had them in that awful house of screaming all the time. My heart will never mend. I still have my one boy left, Brody, who is also so depressed without his brothers to play with.If it wasnt for him, I wouldnt even want to live any longer, with this horrible feeling.I do know how you feel. I hope you get better.

Many dogs will get into chocolate or raisins or whathaveyou and suffer renal failure. It's not always the fault of the owner and in this case, it really wasn't. Nor was it your grand nieces either.
There are some truly negligent owners out there. I foster cats and just received a call from someone interested in a kitten of mine...Why did they want a kitten? Because theirs got into the dryer and died. That's something to feel guilty about. Dogs have allergic reactions to things that most people are surprised to hear. I can't even imagine all the things I've given my animals in earlier years because I didn't think anything of it. It's a common, and forgivable, mistake.
It is unfortunate what happened to your dog, but I'll bet you didn't even know it was toxic until it was too late. Right? We don't get pamphlets on this when we adopt animals. For future reference: http://www.aspca.org/pet-care/poison-contr ol/ They also have 24 hour assistance in the event your animal eats something toxic. It only costs about $6 each call, but it's good to have on hand.
Go adopt a dog. There are millions of them in shelters who desperately need a good home. As distraught as this event has made you, I think it's obvious that you do provide a good home. Knowing that you've rescued an animal in need may help you get passed this. Also consider fostering until you emotionally get back on your feet.