Grief and Loss Question

I lost my mother in 2008 and she was my closest relative. I lost my father and grandmother in 1995. I feel completely lost without her. I\\\'m 27 soon to be 28 on Oct 1, no kids and in a emotion and physical abusive relationship that I dont know how to get out of. I feel like I\\\'m finally growing up some since I lost my mother (and the house we had in the family since the 1950s). I need a little advice on how to cope with all of this. I feel neurotic most of the time. On the good side I went back to school and will complete an AA in Accounting in Dec. I\\\'m recently laid off and just am making ends wave(not meet). Anyone know how to deal my mess of a life?