I lost my maternal grandmother about 3 months ago to lung cancer. I feel guilty and cruel as It has barely affected me though we were quite close.
Life goes on as normal for me, where as my mother and sister are constantly upset by things that remind us of her.
Is there something wrong with me?
I was upset the day of her funeral however that seems to be the extent of it,
I keep waiting for it to hit me like a ton of bricks, all these things people say you should feel. But I dont feel anything except guilt im dishonouring her.
Am I inhuman?
Since I don't know you personaly, its hard to make a judgement about why your grief is different from your families. I do know this everyone deals in thier own way.
I lost my grandmother to a massive, sudden heart attack 5 years ago and spent months crying over the little stuff. My brother didn't, but I know he loved her.
Don't feel guility about not crying all the time. As long as you loved her and miss her, just deal with things in your own way.