hiya i am 19 and in last 4 years ive gone from a size 10 to a size 16 without realising, i mean i've sort of noticed, when i see pictures i feel so disgusting in my self it's like i can see sort of see that i'm pretty but it's traped inside layers of fat n skin. n the worst thing is i keep doing diets n failing them, i think am addicted to food, which also makes me feel like crap, cuz no matter hw hard i try i no there's just no point, cuz il just no that i fail eventually so just think well whats the point, i think it's harder thou, cz even thou she's tryin help me, my mum just keeps telling me how pretty i USED to be,i no she's means it in the best way but to me she's just sayin that i'm dead ugly now, ive been with my boyfriend for 3 1/2 years nw n he say's am gorgeous bu thats nt enuf, i wnt to feel pretty and cnfiedent my self, n sometimes i do then i see my reflection in a window and i get back 2 reality and realise that i am just ugly n fat, and get so angry with myself, but the truth is even though i hate my self n want to get thin for me and my boyfriend and family i just have no will power at all, n try to motivate my self bu i just can't, is there any diets or tips you can give me, to get me motivated cz am sure i can get back to how i used to be with a bit of hard work, i just dnt know what that work is.