I am a compleat mess!

About three weaks ago, my ex girlfreind broke up with me, we had been going out for roughly two years! previous to this maybe a couple of weeks we hadnt being seeing eye to eye. Well she went away for a weak a dumped me whilst she was away, says she did it when she was away because she new i couldnt come round and pester her etc.

There was soooo much love in our relationsip, we didnt technically live together but she would stay around my house or I would hers everynight roughly! and we would often talk about getting a house together, and how she would always love me! I remember one night when she was very drunk and i was driving so wasnt, she was telling me everything she felt for me and its hurts to think that, that was only a few months ago, the truth comes out when ure drunk and she clearly loved me dearly!!!

she said the reason that she ended it was because she needed space because i was very possesive and smotherig, which now i look back on it i really was i have told her that i will change, and i truelly will i have never fealt this terrible and would change so badly for that girl!

having her got back from holiday i took her to the zoo and took her shopping for her birthday and got her some nice stuff, and we where kissing on the lips not often but on goodbyes etc. But this third weak has been terribe on monday she was fine, but now im just gettng so messed up because i just dont undertand why she still needs space when she was kissing me etc and last night i went of on it, i compleaty regret it... i spoke to her mate and she was like matt your just pushing her away she needs space, but i just want to be with her to show her the funs times we have etc!!

im so messed up please someone help me xx