About it January it dawned on me that there is no afterlife or heaven or hell or ANYTHING. I literally felt like someone punched me in the face and stomach. I get so depressed when I think about age or the DISTANT future (like 100, 1000, 1,000,000 years from now). I won't be here, I'll be dead.
I think that when you die it's like when before you were born, nothing. It's so hopeless, I won't know anything. And I'm 13 now, pretty young, but I'll just keep getting older and older and older It's so unbearable. I guess if I were going to die I wouldn't want to see it coming.
When I "figured out" that there was nothing after death, after about a week of utter depression I decided to do anything and everything I possibly can before I die. But I don't know what to do. I don't know where to start. How can I not fear death or at least cope with it better?