I suffered child abuse (physical and sexual) and sometime in my teens I was diagnosed with Bipolar I, Over the years they added Attention Deficit Disorder, Post Tramatic Stress Disorder, Obsessive / Compulsive Disorder, and Borderline Personality. I don't take medication for anything other then the Bipolar now.
I take 2 pills at around 6pm because the doctor kept stressing how important it is to eat when I take the meds.
My husband is in a band and will keep me out til 2 or later in the morning. So on them nights I don't take any pills until I come home. It does not throw me off taking it later. It still helps me get to sleep.
I have only been on the Geodone 2 or 3 years. I use to have trouble taking pills and staying on them. That was before I found out what happens when I miss the Geodone.
I have been on quite a few different meds, they had me on Lithium when first diagnosed. I have also been on Rispuderal, Clonezpam, Wellbutrin, Ritilan, Stratera, Prozac, and some others I can't remember. A lot of trial and error. And I was bad a few years back when I got divorced, I hit bottom with my depression and it seemed like forever before the depression went away, it took more then 6 months before I got the right meds. I am re-married now and thankful for a better husband this time around. My ex didn't understand my mental illness, he didn't tolerate it at all. He would get mad if I was upset.
But what helps is knowing that people love me, and it is ok to have a mental illness, there are people around me that care about me. I didn't always feel that way. That has helped me out alot.
I was misdiagnosed at first as just having depression, then I had manic moods and that is like taking drugs - a natural high that the body produces. I never wanted meds because I never wanted to come down off the manic side. But since I started all the meds I have never had another manic mood, little sad about that. Really missed that up side of things.
I have trouble with racing thoughts, I have a lot of bad feelings towards myself, and I can really bring myself down if left to listen to my thoughts too long. I make sure to always have the TV on when I go to bed, just so I don't start thinking. I don't want to make myself sad, so I just listen to the tv until I fall asleep. Let my husband turn the tv off when he comes to bed.
I use to have trouble with Sleep Paralysis, boy that is a scary thing to have happen to you. It is like your mind woke up and your body didn't. And it feels like someone is in the room, so it can really scare me good. Only lasts a few minutes, but I have gotten out of bed at a full run, just to get to another room where a person was. Knock on wood I think I grew out of that.
Anyway, it was nice meeting you, and look forward to hearing back from you. Thanks for listening.