I think I'm having my first manic episodes...
i can't sleep, my body feel like it's full of adrenaline, yet i can feel a kind of strange weakness.... barely masked by the adrenaline... it's like i know my body is fatigued and weakened from all the adrenaline feeling but i feel fine...
basically it's not a pleasant feeling although it is in some twisted way, euphoric
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strange thing is, for all the high-like feeling, i can't seem to enjoy anything... i randomly click through my huge pirated movie collection... which, i might add, is substantial... but every movie seems so horrendously boring after a few seconds... i'm not interested in sex, or food... or anything else that seem important... it's just a weird empty high (i think now i know how drug junkies feel)...
anyone has any tips on how to stop this? i don't really want to be on medication... i dont want to leave a record on some database that says "the guy's a psycho.."