My husband and I have been through a lot on our 7 years of marriage. We have 2 young kids. Our older child has a disability that takes a lot of my time and energy.
Due to these awful economic times, my husband recently went through a year of unemployment. I ended up working two jobs and this lead to so much tension in our lives that we separated.
During the separation my husband found a job and things began to come back together. He has recently moved back home.
Since we were young, my husband has always been more sexual than me. I find it hard to get in the mood when I'm tired from work and kids. It's been hard to keep my apartment clean with all the other priorities in my life, and the cluttered environment just turns me off more.
When he first moved back home, the novelty of it all (and the fact that having a job can be very sexy) helped me to step up my game. I was satisfying his needs and enjoying doing so. But I am still working 2 jobs and our disabled child has been having some difficulties. Thhen I developed a sinus infection and 2 ear infections.
Needless to say, the wind left my sails. But not his. He has recently taken to sleeping and doing his morning routine in the nude. This is new and I find it a little intimidating. Like I found an inch and now he wants a yard.
I am about to go on vacation. After that I will go back to work only part-time, so that I can focus more energy on my husband and children.
How do I stop worrying about everything to do with sex? I CONSTANTLY feel like a FAILURE because he always seems to want more than I have the energy to give. He's not mean about it, but it's obvious that he wants more than I'm giving.
He talks about sex all the time, feels the need to hug or touch me EVERY time I'm within reach, and constantly jokes about the things he wants me to do with him. He means tyo be silly/romantic, but only succeeds in making me feel like some kind of a sexual failure.
I feel like I am the problem. Like I just need to pull myself together and find my inner sex goddess.
Where do I find a balance??