BabyFutak
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fertility problems
Posted: 06-13-08 18:56pm
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So after almost 2 years or trying I am
still here in the getting pregnant
forum..... THis is not at all how I
planned my life. I have not been here in
awhile because I have been depressed and
have pretty much given up. I wanted to
thank everyone who ever showed me their
support. I feel like I know all of your
girls on here. Even though I am one of the
last few posting in this forum from when I
started. I am sitting here crying my eyes
out because why did this have to happen to
me... What did I do wrong.. I know I am
not the only one with fertility problems
but I am just so angry yet sad at the same
time. What to do now?
I have no idea. 
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eeyore46
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Posted: 06-13-08 19:07pm
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Don't give up! Have you and your husband
been to fertility clinics? Another thing I
have heard of is acupuncure for
infertility. You can look this doctor up
on line, her name is Dr. Lin Zoah. She
specializes in infertility and even
teaches classes at Baylor Medical Center
in Dallas. Have you been on fertility
drugs? Have you been to a doctor to make
sure there is not some kind of blockage in
your tubes? Is you husband's sperm count
high? Don't give up - how old are you?
Hope all goes well for you, my heart goes
out to you. Do you have other children -
how old are you?
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BabyFutak
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Posted: 06-13-08 20:20pm
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I am 27 and no I have no other children. I
ave been pregnant before though twice.
Went to the doctors and they said they
thought I had pcos but now I am without
insurance again so I am up a creek without
a paddle for the time being.
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eeyore46
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Posted: 06-13-08 20:33pm
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I am not familiar with PCOS. I know how
bad it must have hurt you when you lost
your other two. Don't worry about
insurance. There is all kinds of help
out there for families without insurance.
Where do you live? It sounds like there
is no blockage or sperm count issue then,
if you have been pregnant before. Good
luck.
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BabyFutak
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Posted: 06-13-08 20:38pm
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I am in California. it was about 4 months
ago that I went to the doctor then that
insurance went south uhg. One appt then no
more insurance. I have just lost faith
and it really really sucks.
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eeyore46
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Posted: 06-13-08 21:20pm
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I do not know if you want to work, but a
place like a hospital receptionist,
insurance, business office, will provide
great insurance. If not, do not worry
about the insurance, just concentrate on
the little one you are trying to conceive.
Good Luck!
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BabyFutak
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Posted: 06-14-08 03:01am
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well I actually do work I have to and i am
stuck between a rock and a hard place with
getting a new job because my job pays well
and my husband has been on workmans comp
for over a year and the extra money i make
helps us to survive with the soaring
prices.
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eeyore46
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Posted: 06-14-08 03:14am
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Maybe you can check into another job that
has insurance benefits. Again, the
hospital or clinics are a good place to
check out for job possibilities. The only
problem with that, is a lot of places want
you to work 3 months before they will
offer their benefits. Again, good luck!
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BabyFutak
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Posted: 06-14-08 03:16am
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thanks hun. I will look into it.
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Posted: 06-14-08 08:16am
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Hey sweetie,
I am still here so dont feel alone. There
are a lot of the oldies but goodies that
have moved on over to the pregnancy side,
but dont give up you will get there. I
dont post much over here either, also
because it is kinda depressing. I dont
really track anything right now. We are
trying to work on hubbys situation for the
moment. We found out that he has the
problem, so we are working on that.
We will get there, dont worry. We cant
stay on here forever. Have faith.
Good luck in trying to get a job with good
insurancy. I know that can be stressful
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BabyFutak
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Posted: 06-14-08 12:56pm
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I so wish I knew exactly why.. It seems
that everything went to heck after my
miscarriage last june. I started becoming
irregular then I started having stabbing
pains on my left side like every morning
(still wake up with em sometimes) Then
nov-the end of march AF completely stopped
then I had a normal cycle and then went
one month and had a brownish discharge
with a little pink and nothing more and
now here I am no AF again for a few
months. MY bb's are sore all the time I
have Pitting edema of my legs (left worse
than right) My belly is swollen to the
point that I look preggo and people
actually ask me when I am due and when
they ask I do not know if I should get
angry, brush it off, or cry. I have taken
about 20 test in the last 2 months (dollar
store and expenso test) All negative so I
know I am not preggo. Something is really
wrong with me and I just wish I knew what
but I cannot afford to go to the doctors
Gas is eating my bank account alive. 6
bucks a gallon at some stations around me.
Oh and I forgot to mention the lovely
smell of my discharge...... onions "Hurl"
its not heavy or anything not chunky not
weird colors it just smells rancid. I hate
this soo much maybe with my descriptions
someone can help me but I doubt it.
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negar
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just read your post
Posted: 06-14-08 13:31pm
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Babyfutak,
I am so sorry about how you feel. Things
can get really hard sometimes, but don't
give up. I started trying when I was 29
and finally at age of 32 I had my first
miscarriage and then another one at 34. I
am now 36 with a healthy 5 month old boy.
To top it off I went through a divorce,
got married again and was diagnosed with
Hashimotto thyroiditis which is an
autoimune disease and pcos.
It sounds to me like you need to get
medical help. I know you said you cant,
but must figure a way because without your
health nothing matters. I am still paying
for my doctor appointments and all the
medical attention I recieved from 2 years
ago. We are in debt beyond reality but we
will survive.
Everyone has a different story to tell and
the only reason I am sharing mine is not
by any means dimissing yours, but to tell
you I understand how you feel. I also
don't want you to feel alone!!!
You have every right to feel what you
feel, but know that you will get through
it.
I used to tell myself, my time will come.
You just need to trust that...
Love,
Negar
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BabyFutak
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Posted: 06-14-08 13:48pm
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Thank hun =0) I was actually just looking
online for clinics and such and found one
I might be able to afford if they let me
do payments so wish me luck. I have not
really given up but I have given up the
tempting and charting. I know I am not
alone in my troubles. I know some of you
are probably worse off then I am. I feel
kind of bad for being so negative now. I
was mad and upset when I posted this
yesterday. Today.. I am in a very good
mood. It's an emotional rollercoaster. And
I wanted to add that yes I know having a
baby is expensive I know this so I am in
a way relieved I have not gotten preggo
yet but still wanna know whats wrong with
me. I am sorry if I in anyway sounded
selfish and full of myself =0(
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negar
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oh no
Posted: 06-14-08 13:52pm
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dont apologize....no no
you did not sound selfish at all. I just
wante to offer you hope thats all.
this forum is for support and venting
love....
we all have our days.
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BabyFutak
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Posted: 06-14-08 13:56pm
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Ok.. Sorry lots going on in life now I am
sometimes a little beside myself.
Thanks hun
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girlfromdasticks
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Posted: 06-16-08 17:44pm
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I hope that you can find some help that
you can afford. The cost of living is
such a burden for so many people and I
know that you having to work to make ends
meet can be stressful. I feel so bad for
you. I can't imagine being in your shoes
and not knowing what is wrong or why. It
gets so old too people always telling you
its going to be ok and they know how you
feel, but I hope for your sake their kind
words do help. Good luck, and don't give
up.
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monkeygirl22
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Posted: 06-17-08 01:22am
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I remember you! I was on this board as
well. I have pcos and hypothyroidism. I
was, by the grace of God, able to concieve
a second time after my miscarriage. I have
a healthy 4 1/2 month old baby girl. I
remember the days of feeling depressed and
like nothing mattered to me except having
a baby. I will keep you in my prayers.
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ssuttles
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I feel your pain...
Posted: 06-17-08 10:17am
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I know exactly how you feel sweetheart. Me
and my husband have been married for 4
years. I have been TTC for 3 years now.
And I too have PCOS. I have had 3
surgeries to have cysts removed from my
overies. I have never ever been pregnant.
It has been so long. My doctor told me
what happens with PCOS is my eggs turn
into cysts right after ovulation. So I
have like 1 to 2 days to get pregnant. We
just cant get. I feel depressed some days,
but we just keep trying. I know God will
bless me. It hurts though. I see mothers
on the news that leave there kids in cars,
etc, etc, etc. Horrible things that I
would never do to a child. And yet these
horrible women can give birth to beautiful
healthy babies, and not even take care of
them. Ok, I am going to go cry now. No but
I have regular periods and everything so I
dont understand. I will pray for you. Just
keep trying if you think you are ready.
***Baby Dust*** (We need lots of it)
Common symptoms of PCOS include
Oligomenorrhea, amenorrhea — irregular,
few, or absent menstrual periods.
Infertility, generally resulting from
chronic anovulation (lack of ovulation).
face, chest and legs.
Hair loss appearing as thinning hair on
the top of the head
Acne, oily skin, seborrhea.
Obesity: one of two women with PCOS are
obese.
Depression [4].
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DPrssd
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Posted: 06-17-08 12:10pm
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BabyF
I'm so sorry that you are having a hard
time. I truely feel terrible that you can
not even go to a doctor because your
health insurance doesn't cover it. It is
so unfair. I wish there was something I
could do or say to help you find a way to
get care. Time is on your side at 27 yrs
old - and I know many women with PCOS that
got pregnant without medical intervention
on their own.
One thing you have control over is to stay
healthy with lots of water and exercise.
Sounds simple but it works for some and it
never hurts to be at optimum health.
Hang in there and keep trying. You can't
give up - it's not an option. You can take
a break for awhile but know in your heart
that it will happen some day.
Take good care
Cheryl
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BabyFutak
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Posted: 06-17-08 13:06pm
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Well I just got laid off from my job today
I am officially unemployed as of july 1st.
I am shaking. I do not know how I am going
to find a job that pays what this one
does.
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