At the beginning of this year I noticed that some of the negative aspects of my personality were becoming more pronounced. It has started wearing on the relationships I have with my family, friends and partner. Over the past year I have alienated my friends, spending as little time as possible with them because I feel inept in social situations, often feeling anxious when around some of my old friends and it is very difficult to get the energy to go out anymore. I am very irritable with my family and partner. I feel down and weepy very often, usually resulting in crying spells. When doing things that used to make me happy I often find that i don't have enough desire to do them, or that they aren't as enjoyable. In regard to my appetite I either eat constantly or spend entire days not eating. My sleeping patterns are very irregular. I find it hard to sleep at any time before 5 am and I usually oversleep when I need to wake up in the early hours. Recently I have been suffering frequent suicidal thoughts and thoughts of harming myself. I have little to no self esteem and often feel like a burden to others and that I am worthless. I am very pessimistic about future events. Also for the past few weeks I have feel feeling very physically ill, usually suffering from backache, headache and aches in my joints. I have suffered from a few panic attacks and have experienced palpitations and dizziness. Any ideas?
being depressed is horrible but at the same time it is reversible. you can fight it. even though it needs a lot of work. the lack of sleep makes you physical ill and dizzy. some times you try so hard to pretend nothing is wrong but you can't at the end you feel weak and helpless. you can't stop crying and suicidal thoughts attack you. but hun every thing in life is difficult we need to struggle to get over things. no one ever born without struggling no matter how rich he is or no matter what he owns. i discovered that the less faith the harder it is to coop with this life.to fight this depression we need to pray and ask god to help us. we need to do what it takes to fight it. go to a therapist. do some exercize. go out with friends. keep your self busy. face your fears if you have a problem with some one face him. and find your inner strength. heal your self be gentel with your lovely soul.pray every night and day ask god to provide you with peace.help people whom in need. why would you harm your self your self is already in pain you should love it and treat it well. there is a solution for any problem it is not the end of the world. and every thing no mater how hard it is will be fine
Good Job! Try and indulge in something that may otherwise have been displeasing to you in the past, give into that something. Put yourself in a position where the only way out will leave you with a sense of accomplishment. Also, be outside while taking some time for yourself to just clear your mind. A trick to help with this is focusing on your breathing. Another way to give yourself a pat on the back is to do some physical work that will benefit you and others around you. "I like to rake the leaves" Your future is unpredictable so stop worrying about tomorrow and focus on today's problems' because everything eventually comes to pass. So blast your music and do your dirty laundry and both at the same time. Remember a clear head will put you to bed, but an empty day will leave you feeling dead.