I just cut myself today... something I have not done in 2 years... and I felt accomplished. No more cutting, taking pills, etc... I finally felt like a real person again.

I'm in a rough spot. I live with my fiance and his parents and 14 yr old brother. I am very appreciative that they took me in from my recent home because my step mother was very horrible, and my father wouldn't stand up to her.

My fiance's mother has a horrible temper, and I'm always depressed by things that she says to him and me... and she lets the youngest get away with every thing, and it kills me.

The youngest also feels like he has free reign over what he can say to everyone, even me. Telling my I'm "crabby" and whatnot... and it irritates me. I'm only crabby when I'm trying to have a serious talk with my fiance, and he bugs us to no end until my fiance does what he wants him to do.

I feel very numb, and I have no where else to go because I'm trying to go to college. I need advice... I'm not crazy, just desperate...