Hi, I'm Steve and I'm 19.
I really dont know where to begin, Ive been feeling so down from about 6 months ago, everything is spiraling out of control i feel. i lost my job, only having for a month, the job wasnt for me at all, then i was told that cant join any of the armed forces becuase of medical reasons, i was depressed for about 3 months when i was trying to pass my driving test a year before, and because of that im not allowed to join the army until 4 years have gone by without needing any more help for depression and until all my orthodontic work is done ( at least 2 years ive been told)
I've tried really hard to find a job, every single application i have sent has either been met with no response or sorry you are over/under qualified for this job.
i feel completely useless.
my entire family is a mess right now, im worried about my mum who was made redundant not to long ago and cant find a job for the same reasons as me, i cant ask her for help as it just annoys her and doesnt want to hear it. my dad isnt much help and neither is the rest of my family.
I really dont know who to turn to, i have no friends, everyone hates me,
another thing i think im paranoid or am i just going insane? I have no idea what to think or believe. Is there no help for me? Should i really just give up and die, because that i what think everyone on this planet wants, a world were i dont exhist.