Here we go. It sounds like you are capable of handling your emotions well for the majority so I'm not sure if medication is the best option.

Try this instead:

meet new people at the Toastmasters club in your area. I recommend this option because it is extremely empowering. Everyone who goes does it for the same reason. To improve public speaking and encourage each other. It's fun to participate in the table topics as a guest.

What I read today in a writing by Christian Carter, was that if you have fear and negative thoughts it can be overpowering and it can be contagious to the people around you - he talks about it in the context of a boyfriend. Then he says optimism and positive thinking is better.

A situation he said was, say your boyfriend doesn't call in two days, what are the things you start to wonder. He doesn't like me, he's seeing another woman.. etc..

Instead he says imaging that something bad happened at work and he is having a hard time - bring light into the situation - then remind yourself when he has time for you he will be that much more interested.


I was bad with breakups and always got psychotic and tried to kill myself. That's bad depression.

Yesterday I talked to a Pastor that goes to my gym and he told me to read from the testament about John. I was never a christian but it's kind of neat I actually joined a youth group at a church the same day and it was supportive, when I talked to one guy he just said when I read about that guy to answer two questions. Who is Christ and What does he want you to do. So I don't know it was alright. I guess....

Sometimes when I'm depressed I do anything to feel good. It keeps my spirits up. Like having an assortment of beverages to quench my thirst. Mochacino, iced cap, diet pepsi and orange juice - I did that once. Then today it was club soda and lemon with honey lemon tea with honey in it.

Even my friend Amanda says spoiling herself with things makes her feel really good. So I wish you the best and good luck being content!