are you ok im only 13 and i get depressed really bad i hope you fell ok
are you?

oh sweetie. i wish i could give you a big hug right now. i have suffered depression my whole life. its a very bad family "CURSE" too many have committed suicide in my family. i went many years with no dr help thinking im strong i can handle it. finally i realised i did need it. im on cimbalta now and love it. so first get to the dr. now this man is clearly in violation of your life go fill out a report no matter how minute it seems and even if its every day fill out a police report this will be your only way of showing his torture if something God forbid bad was so come of this . i did this with a person who herrassed me for 4 years and when i went to court i had every report in my hands to show the judge. so please do this. let them know what hes doing to you and dont let the fact that he THINKS hes someone stop you please. and stop letting him get to you. you showing him it hurts you makes it more pleasurable to him. when you leave your house no matter how you feel have the biggest smile on your face. laugh and giggle and enjoy life. if you see someone dressed like you say love your style. or think of it as a compliment to get you through the day. have the phoone company tap your phone have the police do this for you if they will i did this also every time they callled it was logged. install baby cams in your house if you think hes getting in. God i hope not. but you said his name was in your old books that alone scares me. i wish i could talk to you on the phone now. i too have always been a loner a result of my depression so i never let myself get close to people or have friends to be close to. this man is not the one. the ONE would never do anything to hurt you. so get that out of your mind. go to the police and ask if there are support groups for people who have been stalked and see how they are handeling it and you may just find a good friend who can share your pain too. please do this lso. i wish you could move but i know how hard that can be. im glad you have parents to call mine are deceased. my whole family were gone by the time i was 30. so your lucky there im 37 now and still suffer depression but its managed at this point. please contact me if you needa friend ill be glad to help you in any way i can . but PLEASE go to the police and tell them everything first and formost. please he needs to be stopped. no matter who he is even if hes the cheif of police or the mayor GO GO GO/ big big hugs

I just saw this post so I truly don't have any idea of what it is about...The only thing that I can make out of your post is pain...If I was in your position without any hope of making any progress in this problem that seems hopeless, I would get away...I would disappear...Go to another city, town or even country...I would make a new beginning...Leave all the bad memories at the place where they began...Start over and learn to live again...I am sorry, but without knowing there is nothing else I can say about this...And may I add, from the state of mind that you are in, keep it hidden...Start now...The pain must end to find a new beginning...

Whoever you are, I wish you well...I pray that you will find peace as I have found my peace...

Love,
Caroline

Thank you for all the replies.

bamagirl1: Thank you for sympathizing with me. It's so easy for everyone to laugh and judge me, but they don't know what it's like to be in this situation. You have offered some great advice - I will have to try that. Yes, I'm very fortunate to have my parents. I'm so sorry your family is gone. I hope all is well with you.

I know you think I'm misguided for considering that this guy is "the one" given everything that has happened. You are not the only one who feels that way - apparently everyone does. I know I can't explain any of it very well, but there have been many, many incidents and occurrences (signs) that have happened which usually would NEVER occur. These are abnormal and extraordinary things that I can't get into here. I believe in fate and destiny and that the universe tries to communicate with us by bringing certain manifestations about. For example: his unique name appearing over and over again in several different items. The chances of that happening are so slim and that along with so MANY other instances. It only happens when the world is trying to unite people.

CarolineEF: Thank you for your kind words. I am very much in pain right now for multiple reasons. The worst part is that I have become a complete joke and many people are taking pleasure in my pain all due to a lie. I have begun to move on, as much as I possibly can considering the circumstances. It's support from people like you and bama that are helping me through this. Leaving is not an option, I don't have the resources or the independence to do so and the person causing all of this would probably get to me elsewhere anyway.

I am most certainly learning to live again slowly, but with this going on it isn't easy. It's almost impossible as I am bothered everywhere I seem to go. I wish I could leave all the bad memories behind, but if you knew the whole story and you saw what I saw, you would see how difficult and impossible it is. It's all so tragic. I'm feeling very depressed right now.

I hope you feel better. pray to God, he andwers.

Thanks.

You're welcome.

I'm so sorry. Maybe one day it will all be okay. I understand exactly how you feel. Its hard being here...in this life. I often feel like I can't anymore. maybe one day...

if weve helped even alittle im so glad. smile big and good luck in finding the real Mr. right hell come he came for me hell come for you . big huggs

hmmmm, all you can do is be honest right? which u are. Whatever the situation is all u can do is be honest with them. Move on and Don't take what people say to heart. I'm still learning that. I'm realizing that my greatest inner fears are present everyday in my world because it's what im thinking about most, so of course situations of my fears is what im going to attract. Change the inner and you change the outer! And don't worry about what people think, it doesn't matter. Much love to you! (:

<3Quincy