im a 15 an iv battled with depression since i was 12 years old after i got sexually assaulted by my mums ex boyfriend. i also suffer from anorexia but its not that i need the help with. for weeks i can be fine an then il hit rock bottom an nothing helps to pick me back up again, but this time iv never been down as long as i have been done, its been since febuary i can't find away to feel better. i see a support worker, a phsychiartrist and a sexual abuse team that work with young girls but nothings helping infact it makes me even more low talking about it. but since febuary the depressions got worse an iv even had anti-depressants but they don't work. i just feel completely useful and dont even know why im still here some days i wonder whats stopping me from killing myself but i can't actually face doing yet in 2008 between june and october i was in hospital 9 times getting my stomach pumped and since all my attempts failed i moved on to self harm and it made me feel better but now it doesnt. i just feel like im losing it and that one day i will break down completely, each day theres always something or some-one putting me down and it makes me 10times worse, i cry myself to sleep every night just wishing il not wake up so all the pain goes away. i know this sounds daft and proberly crazy but my inner voice or what ever you call it just wont shut up if some one puts me down it agrees if you know what i mean ? does every one go through this with depression or is it just me? im no confussed i just want it to shut up but even though im in control of it i cant get it to. an its making me feel even more worse and cause of it i get splitting sore headaches. i just want advice, is this normal for depression ? or am i going insane? someone help.