HI

When I was in my late teens I sufferd with real bad acne. After years of different treatments I finally got rid of MOST of the active acne, however have been left with scarring. I have spend teh last few years having differnt treatments to reduce the scarring, which has helped.

when I was in my late teens I was bullied and had to listen to a lot of hurtful comments like "you nearly look normal now" and that was from a cousin who was trying to be nice!!!

Although I had friends in the early years of my teens I lost them all when I got acne as I stopped going out.
Then in my mid 20s I started a new course in a new university, the active acne was nearly gone and I made a few friends. for the first time in years I felt a little content. I still had no confidence and hated my skin.
now we have left university and are working. they have all met boyfriends and have totally forgotten about me. i feel so lonely. i have tried to get out there and meet new friends but its just do hard. I also feel so let down by the girls.

i dont think I will ever be confident or have self esteem. today is my birthday and sometimes I just wish that life treated me better. dont get me wrong I know there is people starving in the world.

I dont know why i am wriiring this i dont even know does it make sense but I guess I just wish I met a guy, someone to love me. I dont know what its like to be loved ort to be in love but I imagine its a wounderful feeling. even as a kid all i wanted was to meet a guy get married and have kids.

I really dont think it will ever happnen for me now, and i just dont think I can face the rest of my life alone.

Thanks for taking teh time to read this

Trica