I had my first panic attack at 15 (I'm now 22) after having tried marijuana and getting high, and have avoided marijuana ever since. It was possibly the worse panic attack I've ever had, the beginning of an anxiety disorder that is based on a fear anything that makes me feel like I have little or no control, which is what happened when I got "high".
Anyway, that was years ago, and about 2 years ago when I turned 20, my anxiety attack got out of control again, so this time I sought professional help. Part of my treatment included exposure therapy. (I have a fear of my heart beating and the palpitations that I get sometimes, so my psychiatrist made me run up and down the stairs to induce the feelings I was so afraid of. It didn't eliminate my fear, by I don't automatically think I'm having a heart attack anytime my heart rate changes or I get a palpitation, I have more control over my fear. So exposure therapy sorta works.)
Anyway, I was thinking about this the other day, and I thought of something... I don't want to ask my psychiatrist though, cause it sounds crazy!
Since the feeling of being high and not having full control because of being high is what triggered my panic attacks, then is perhaps exposure therapy to being "high" and not having full control a possible way of treating my anxiety disorder?
When I think about it, the feeling of being high is one of the scariest thing I can think of! Anytime I have a feeling of not being fully in control of my body, even being dizzy, de-personalization, drunk, very tired, etc etc it brings back the feeling of being high and having panic attacks and this increases my anxiety. So I avoid any kind of feeling that reminds me of being high otherwise I have an attack.
It seems ridiculous, but... can exposure therapy to marijuana actually help me with my panic attacks?????