I was with my ex for 3 years, we lived together for 2 years of that. He broke up with me after 2 years and I cut all contact with him. He then told me about a month later that he realised what a big mistake he had made and he realised that I was the girl for him. So we decided to try and work things out. The reason he left in the first place was because we were going through a very stressful time. When we got back together his parents refused to have anything to do with me because of an incident that occurred 6 months prior, and that did not have anything to do with us breaking up. So at first things were a bit rocky, but we were working on it and things were getting better. Then exactly 12 months later, almost to the day, he does it again. He told me he doesn't think he loves me enough to be with me. So I told him to get out. Which was a upset about because he didn't want to break up with me. Now I should add here that again it was a stressful time in our lives, and I was taking on a job in the next town over, I was moving on the day he told me he didn't love me enough.
The part that I am confused about is that he tells me he still wants to be friends and sends me text messages calling me his besty, he also has said this to my face. Now I have had to see him a few times to sort some things out, and during these times he tells me he misses me and that he will always love me, and there will always be a special spot for me in his heart, but he doesn't want to be with me. He also wants to sleep with me, and puts this out in the open. He makes excuses to touch me, and always wants to hug me, and not just friendly sort of hugs. We broke up two months ago. He also wants to talk to me about the good times we had together, and tells me of things that have made him think of me. He also calls me beautiful and baby, like he used to when we were together. When I pull him up on this he always says, sorry its a habit. But last time he whispered in my ear that I was beautiful, so doesn't seem like a habit to me.
But last week after I met up with him to give him some of his stuff back, and he wanted to sleep with me, he spends 3 nights with another chick away, this is a girl that he works with but only met 2 weeks ago. He tells me that its nothing now, and she is going away for a few weeks, and he will see what happens when she gets back, he may pursue a relationship with her. At the same time he is telling me that he is going to a family dinner where he will be the only single and says it almost like he is sad about that.
Also I had to drop some more stuff back to him and I told him to come round in a small window of opportunity that I had, he had just made himself some lunch and said he could come later, when I told him that it would have to be now or in a couple weeks, he dropped his lunch and came running. I also had to give him some money for a check I recieved that should of been his, and when I gave him some money is was having tea after work (he works at a pub) and I put the money on the table and walked straight out, he chased me out half way through his tea to say thank you and ask me if I was ok.
But he also says that he does not want to get back together with me and he feels that breaking up was the right thing to do. If I tell him not to contact me he respects that, but if I contact him first then he is right there with an answer.
It just doesn't seem to make any sense to me. Am I reading into it more then is there?? Does his actions make sense to anyone else?? I think he is confused about what he wants and is hurting me in the process. But am I reading more into this because I am still in love with the guy, or is he being clear, because he tells me he doesn't want to be with me.
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