everything to be happy about, but feel very alone

Hello,

Actually your post sounds quite promising to me. The best measue is always someone else as they can see you and hear you while we cannot. We hear what's going on in our head.

Your doctor is best to advise on how long before you can expect improvements. Try a daily journal, morning and night, just note how you feel. Ratings from 1 to 10 would do. But don't look at the previous scores. Cover it over or fold the paper so you can't see until you have, say, a month's scores. Then look at them.

You say you have everything to be happy about but that's today isn't it. The origin of our depression often goes right back to our first few years so a therapist is needed to help you find why and when it started. Once you find that then the depression will reduce some.

Not all meds help, even when increased. A med that works at 20 may do no better at 40. It sounds logical that it should but there's nothing logical about this ilness, the treatments or the pills. Go with what you feel and your husband tells you. Make sure he is being honest too, not just pumping you up.