I was doing so well. I hadn't harmed in about 2 months.
My boyfriedn started to get really sad because his parents was hitting him. He asked what i was doing on msn one days and i told him talking to my friend. He got really mad saying i shouldn't talk to men he doesn'tknow. So he phoned me, tole me to watch his webcam. He got a knife and put it on his wrist, heb presssed until i was screaming and crying for him to stop. So he said yes and pressed ti to his neck. He was in pain, i can still remeber his face. He said he'd be beter of dead. I couldn't talk anymore, i broke my phone squeasing to so harm and i have squeased my arm so hard it was bleeding. After that he stoped. I put my phone together again he cqalled and was crying and mumbling about that he should die. I conforted him but ended up cuttingm myself throught it all. Ifeel stupid. I feel everyone would be happier without me. My parents saw my cuts last tim and toldme off and toldme how much of a disappointment and failure i was. I can't do anything right and can't even stop hurting myself. I'd be better off dead.