(insight from someone dx'ed bp II)

So, when I am ON (in a perky good mood) , it is like I am on stage. I show up and put on a great, entertaining little show. I am witty, funny, at times even brilliant. I shimmer and sparkle; I'm sassy and spunky. Then I prance off stage, the curtain closes and I move back into my private little dressing room to recharge and then later, I retreat back to my quiet little home where I just want to be alone again.

Unfortunately, my audience follows me home. They call, txt, email and wander through my neighborhood. They track me down at the pool. They want to see more of the show. They think the show goes all day, all night. It doesn't. It only goes on when I decide that there is going to be a show. And that is determined spontaneously, without warning, for an undetermined length of time. Show times and locations are not posted. Sorry.

I wonder if others have had issues with the "audience following you home". I only want to socialize when I want to. I only want to be social when I want to get on the stage. Then we can talk. But the moment I get off the stage, I pretty much need to be alone.

So the epiphany is... the audience following me home seems to be one of my triggers.

Anyone else relate to this?