emotional numbness/emptiness and disconnection?

You feel you have no more emotions whether positive or negative. You just feel "blah" about life. It can be distressing when you KNOW you care about somethings but you don't FEEL anything about it now.

Emotions may also come and go for no reason. You know you feel something in your head, but can't find it in your heart. You may also not care about anything anymore. in a sense, you have NO emotions about anything or things you used to.

^ I feel exactly like that. (This all happened after a health scare that I thought was really bad but turned out to be common so I stopped freaking out about it, when I stopped... I just stopped feeling altogether. I don't know what happened!)

** I eat and sleep fine. I'm not suicidal (only sometimes when I still can't seem to feel anything) but generally, I'm not. At first, I felt fatigue a lot but then as the months passed, I started feeling less fatigue and now I barely feel it..I only hate myself BECAUSE I can't feel anything.. If I started feeling something again I would practically love myself to death.

Basically, my only problem is emotional numbness/emptiness and disconnection from the world and my loved ones. I can't stand feeling nothing for my boyfriend! It's like in my head I KNOW I love him but I can't seem to find it in my heart and he's the one thing I was sure about ever since I met him. I love him so much. Not only do I not feel anything for him, but everything I was passionate about like dancing and my other friends..Everything was perfect before the numbness hit and I just want to be myself again...Also, my chest tightens sometimes for no reason even when I have no reason to be nervous. It makes it even more hard to feel anything.. It makes my limbs shaky and weak too when I try to shake it off or do something physical to get rid of the tightness in my chest It's like I'm always in front of a live audience.. I can feel that I'm nervous physically but I have nothing to be nervous about so I can't feel it emotionally? Gah.. I don't know..

Please help me! It's been going on for at least two months now...People say I'm experiencing depersonalization... How do I cure that? I don't want to feel this way anymore! I just want to love again! Take everything else away from me just not my love for him...I don't want to stay this way forever. Is it possible that this could take over completely and I may never feel normal again? HELP! I don't want that to happen..