i spilt with my boyfriend of only two months on sunday but i was living with him and spent all our time together as we were both off sick from work.
we work together thats how i met him we were both in bad relationships at the time and we help each other with advice with partners. we then went out for a drink and i eneded up back at his and i didnt leave until sunday. we started off a bit rocky when drink was involved but we both put that down to the hurt from the pervious realationship. it started to get better after two weeks untill he hit me with a bombshell that his ex might be pregeant. then he changed it to she been in contact with him and she was, this was all lies. i mananaged to get over that, and just put it down to the past thing again.


the next thing was we were out for my birthday and there was a girl there and he was chatting and she said that was a bit far for us to go out for dinner wasnt it. i questioned him on it and he said they are mates but wouldnt tell me how he met her, so im believeing they had a sexual relationship. he used to wind me up about her all the time saying going to ask megan tonight or ill just go see megan. now i started believing he just wanted to see if i cared by making me jealous, so put up with it even though it hurt.
there are plently of other things he said like we were just a one night stand that went wrong, sex was boring didnt know if he meant with me, he wouldnt lose much if he lost me, would contact me if i left it would be my choice ane and wouldnt stop me. all stuff that made me feel he didnt care.
one the other had the was asking me to move into a flat together that was better then his one that it would be somewhere to call our own all other plans were made as well.


i am regreating leaving him but i just wanted to know were i stood beacuse i was so confused all the time. im missing him like crazy, but he dropped all my stuff into work today and wont speak to me. i think that has made it clear.
the reason i left was because he babysat for his sister and was meant to come home on the sunday he had me waiting at his mums all day saying he would be back. rung in evening to say he wasnt, so i had to go find somewhere to stay. the landlord at this place didnt know i was living there so i couldnt stay there on my own. in his aggrement it says only one person living there so i couldnt stay. i had to find somewhere to stay that late at night. he didnt even ask his mum if i could stay there. i acted a lot on impluse beacuse i was so hurt for him knowing he wasnt coming back but didnt tell me.

i tested the water but i think it has backfired. i had to rung his mum as he wont speak to me because he didnt bring all my stuff. he said it would all fit in the bag. so you put it in another one dont you?? dont know what that is about.

i dont want to run back beacuse i know that he didnt care and it will happen again, but the other part wants me to but scared he will shut the door in my face. im just missing and i know now im in love with him but it took being away from him to see that.

i just dont know what to do any advice would be appreciated

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