Ever since I was in elementary school, i've always been afraid of vomit. I was scared of vomiting myself, but i was, (and still am) a healthy kid and i think i've only thrown up about 5 times in my whole life (i'm 16)
People say emetophobia starts out with a childhood experience. I can't remember one. Well, only one. 1st grade art class, someone threw up. But i can't remember any emotion that i had, i don't think i was even bothered by it. I think it's that i don't like panicked situations, and i don't like when i'm not in control.
I'm mostly afraid of other people throwing up. If someone tells me they have a headache, i become paranoid, and i'll keep watch on them and check on them every 5 minutes to see if they are ok. I avoid going to the nurses' office at school, because i'm afraid someone will be throwing up. When someone in my family is sick, even if they haven't thrown up, i lock myself in the basement, and i constantly ask them if they are going to throw up. If they do throw up, even if i'm not near them, i'll start shaking and crying, and i'll run out of the house. Even when my mom coughs, i assume that she'll throw up, so i run out of the house.
Back about 5 years ago, my family was over my grandmas house, about 1 hour away> My brother ate octopus, and then i guess he ran around too much and he threw up. I ran out of their house hysterically crying, and walked down the street. I didn't go back for 2 hours. Even though my brother was fine after that (he got everything out of his system, and he wasn't even sick), i demanded my aunt to bring me home in a seperate car.
I avoid going to the nurses office, rides at theme parks, hospitals, doctors offices. I get scared if i'm traveling with alot of people, i always look around to make sure that no one is a potential for sickness. Emetophobia has made me extremely paranoid.
But, i haven't thrown up in 6 years. Untill October. My brother came down with something and was uncontrollably throwing up for about 2 days. I had a marching band competition meanwhile, and suddenly my mom (who was working at the competition) started to not feel well and apparently threw up in the parking lot. When i got home, I knew something didn't feel right, and 2 hours later i woke up severly shaking. I was absouloutley terrified, so i called my friend and i was asking him what throwing up was like (because i didn't know). I ended up throwing up 11 times in the course of 2 hours. Suprisingly, it wasn't as bad as i thought.
Unfourtanetly, my dad was in amsterdam, so everyone was sick!
I would rather throw up myself then see someone else throw up (KNOCK ON WOOD!)
If it's on tv, i don't really mind, or if some random person throws up at a big place (ex., a theme park), at least i can walk away from it. But i hate being in places that i can't get out of (etc, my house, transportation, people who i'm stuck in a room with.
My mom and brother are sick right now actually. I thought i heard my brother throw up so i ran outside crying. I was suppossed to go out to dinner with my friend tonight, but for some strange reason my mind was telling me that i was 'sick' (even though i'm fine now) I was afraid i was going to throw up at her house or at the resturaunt, and that would be embarressing.
So, basically, i'm at a loss. I'm sick of this. I wanna be normal. How am i suppossed to have kids with this fear?! I can't run away when they throw up! And i don't wanna be paranoid anymore.
My parents know i'm terrified, but when i tell them about emetophobia, they think it's all in my head. i honestly can't control it.
I know this is probably a question everybody asks, but what should i do? How do i cure this fear of other people throwing up?

Please give your insight.