Whast if i give up my goal of having a perfect body?

What if i just relax as "normal" people do?

What if i never ever plan a diet, a restriction, a purge or any other compensatory activity any more?

What if i just Give Up on my brilliant plans for my body?

------------What would i do then?
What would my day look like?
What i would look like?
What would i feel like?

My answer is: I would feel bored Oh so bored, .DO U IMAGINE HOW MUCH TIME WE WAIST ON ED? Ed became a huge part of my life, nevertheless i dont purge/laxatives any more and dont starve, i binge and than watch and count calories, check how much i have gained, plan "a moderate diet" to get rid of it, and as soon as i get there, i again binge and the cycle goes oooon.

SO I AM BACK ANOREXIC

YES THIS IS BETTER, THE STRESS IS SAME, SO BETTER BE SKINNY WITH ED, THAN FAT WITH ED

SOS
PLEASE GIVE ME AN ANSWER
(') XOXOX