Sadboy,

Anything in excess is not good for you and if you have been doing all of the above to excess then that needs to stop. Stopping ecstasy is a good start, the side effects of ecstasy are endless but do include paranoia. However the most likely reason for your paranoia is your daily cannabis use. One of the biggest side effects of cannabis use is paranoia, the more you smoke the more paranoid you get and as you've been smoking daily for 4 years then this is very likely the cause. How bad your side effects are depends on the individual, sounds like you have it quite bad. To let you know I am not just somebody spouting off advice, not having lived the reality. I was an excessive ecstasy and class A user over a period of around 7 years and a daily cannabis smoker for over 10 years. Paranoia and other side effects won't go away just two days after you've stopped, you need to give up for a long period of time (preferably for good) and you should feel better. One thing is for sure, if you don't stop then things will not get better. You say you want to be normal again, things won't be easy but I'm sure about this - if I can give up after my usage for over 10 years then I am sure that you can too. I would suggest that you try and get active, the health benefits are obvious but it has the added benefit of getting you out of the house. If you always smoked in your house or your room then it is a good idea to get some activities away from the place where you did your smoking as the craving will always be strongest in this place. Get in touch with some of your friends who you may have lost touch with (non cannabis smokers of course). Surrounding yourself with people where cannabis isn't the focus is massively helpful. Maybe confide in somebody that you can trust, telling somebody your problems can feel like a massive weight has been lifted. I am assuming that most of your problems stem from your smoking as you have mentioned that paranoia is a big problem and you smoke daily. If alcohol is a daily thing then I would suggest that this is an even bigger problem than the cannabis. Cannabis addiction is not that strong (in comparison with most other drugs) and although it might send you a bit loopy(!) it won't kill you (cancer aside of course). Alcohol addiction is extremely strong and can kill you. If you have an alcohol addiction I suggest that you get help quickly, tell a trusted friend or if you can't do there will be a number of local groups you can contact. You should be able to get a number from the internet or your local telephone directory. You can try and quit on your own but statistically you are far more likely to succeed as part of a group. Whatever you decide I wish you luck, it will take time but remember that the longest journey starts with a single step and if you want to 'be normal again' this is the only way.

May the power of the universe be with you Sadboy, and I can asure it is!!! Get help. AA, NA, CA, any "A". With a sobriety/clean date of 1/19/05, 30 years of all the drugs/alcohol mentioned above and then some and I can get clean and sober, so can you. As Clayton1302 said above find a local group in your area either via your local phone book or from the internet. Best wishes.

yes those drugs combined will make things happen to your thoughts. try eliminating theX 1st. That in my opinion is the worst then try the next 2

best wishes

Thanks to all who replied, your posts have been very helpful. I've stopped cannabis for about 1 week now and I feel a great difference. I've started to go out more and I feel like I have more to live for. I still feel sketch at times but I realized that it's not going to change overnight. I haven't touched ecstasy and I don't think i will ever again. I fear that drug now. I have been drinking the last few days because of the Halloween festivities and I have been monitoring how much i drink. I get to a slight buzz and I don't drink anymore even tho my body craves too. I hope my progression continues.