On most days I cannot stand looking in the
mirror. I constantly scrutinize every part
of me thats less than average. I am a size
12 after I put on a little weight and I
feel so fat sometimes that I just don't
want to leave my house. I constantly think
my boyfriend is looking at every girl that
I think is better looking than me and as
you can imagine this happens a lot and
puts a lot of strain on us. I love him so
much but I feel like I am stuck in a black
hole and cant feel happy anymore. This
started when I was 9 and couldnt wear tops
unless they covered my bum, I thought I
was a fat ugly kid but I look at photos
and think I was really pretty back then
and not fat at all. I am sooo desperate to
put a stop to this and live a fairly
relaxed and normal life. Advice I've had
in the past and books I've read just don't
help in the long term.
