I will get straight to the point here:

I am 18 years old, and have been in a constant setting of drug abuse since i was 16, starting off first with the use of marijuana, then cigarettes, then ecstasy, and onto cocaine and psychadelics.

Just recently, about a week ago, i had a panic attack that induced attackacardia, and I believe that much of the result was conceived through the abuse of illicit drugs and their toll on my health. I became an ecstasy abuser about a year ago, and would sometimes take up to 5 times the normal dose of the drug as compared to the average amount most users would take within an 8 hour time frame. I began to notice that i would get strange symptoms weeks after the drug use, which consisted of slight feelings that i was on the drug, when i was not, and had occasional "flashbacks" in which i felt overwhelmed for a second or two and would have to stop doing what i was in the middle of doing. This lasted for quite sometime, and i gradually layed off the ecstasy use month after month as the effects seemed to wear off, and i was tired of wasting my money and having to sit through feelings of depression and occasional anxiety. After this, i found out about the use of morning glory seeds to obtain an lsd-like effect, which was actually lsa. i ended up in the hospital with paranoia and anxiety, and i believe that i have permanently left my mind scarred. and with the recent attackacardia, i can now say that i have an anxiety disorder, or at least anxiety problems. i noticed that when i gave anxiety attacks, i have the sam symptoms triggered as to that when i had my ecstasy flashbacks. my jaw would clench, my chest would tighten up and sometimes quiver as if i were standing in the freezing cold, my hands and feet turn purple when they are not cold, my pupils fully dilate the size of my eye as if i were on the drug, and i begin to shake involunarily as if cold when i am not. i dont know if this actually has to do with the psychadelic trauma from the ecstasy abuse along with the morning glory seed abuse, but i sometimes wonder if i will be permanently damaged from now on. it seems as though i can not keep my mind 100 percent clean off the subject of having heart issues again.

so i was just curious if anybody else amongst this forum would happen to be having similiar symptoms, or would happen to know anything upon this subject of drug use and anxiety?

i would appreciate help in regards as to what i can do to prevent future heart problems from anxiety. i am currently off of drugs, and dont really plan on picking them back up either for a while, or possibly ever again.

oh, and one other bit of information...about 2 weeks before my attackacardia, i took ecstasy, and i also took 40 mg of ritalin just prior (about 2 hours) before my attackacardia. could any of this be related as well?

any help would be great!

thanks.