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Q: Dreams taking over life
asked by: freshlaundry on April 21st, 2009
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As far back as I can remember I've occasionally had very vivid dreams that seem significantly more important than the events of real life, and also more real.
This was not much of an issue when I was younger, or if it was I can't remember, but in the past couple of years I'll have episodes where I can't be woken by any sort of alarm and become combative (or simply experience barely-controllable rage and hostility) if another person tries to wake me. In addition, when they do successfully wake me, I either fall right back asleep or am weak and lethargic for 1-12 hours afterwards, unable to even open water bottles by myself, and can't think about anything but the dreams I had or going back to sleep or the possible sleep disorder I might have.
When I lived alone there were days when I would sleep 20 hours out of the day, experiencing complex, vivid dreams the entire time. I would periodically wake up and literally struggle to reclaim reality, before I felt sucked back down into sleep by the dream, which would resume from where it left off. I wake up exhausted and preoccupied with the plots of dreams that sometimes feel like they span years - at times I've lived out entire lifetimes as someone else, or as myself in different realities. The plots which were incohesive and having no basis in reality when I was younger, are now growing more and more related to mundane events of daily life, though always with some underlying subplot that I am dealing with. They are generally unpleasant in nature, but not nightmarish, focusing on moderate emotional trauma.
In recent months the dreams have been increasing in frequency, and have reached the point where I have between 2 and 6 (that I can remember) a night, and am completely pre-occupied with sleep at all times. I'm either sleeping, struggling to wake up, struggling to stay awake, or attempting to accommodate severe weakness and an inability to care or think about anything. I am growing increasingly distant with my own identity, identifying more with my time spent unconscious than my actual life. I find it difficult to understand that my relationships or classes at college matter, and instead just struggle to make it through every day until I crawl into bed. I can usually regain perspective after an hour or so (this time period is lengthening as well) of struggling, however I don't genuinely care about the details of my life, and am constantly mind numbingly exhausted.

The hold of these dreams on me has always been very strong, and the influence my sense of reality greatly. There was a period a year ago when I ended a highly tumultuous relationship with my boyfriend of three years. The situation was very complicated and traumatizing, and I ended up with a mild case of PTSD concerning the events, which eventually resolved itself. A couple months later, I began having dreams every night that we had gotten back together and were happily in bed with each other while I was in my bed alone, and would wake alone wondering where he was and even go so far as to call him, having forgotten our entire break-up. Given that the break-up was my idea, and that in my waking hours I experienced little emotional distress over the issue, this was very odd.

At present I am dreaming through classes, social engagements, obligations, dr's appointments, and am constantly so exhausted that it feels like my life is the dream now, and my dreams the reality. I sleep for 7-16 hours at a time and have to be woken each time by my current boyfriend, who I then feel irrationally furious with and then mildly irritated by for hours afterward. In fact, I'm avoiding all social contact and find almost everyone to be tiresome and mildly irritating.
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Agentlb
replied on April 22nd, 2009
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a few questions
Did you ever see doctors? If yes, what did they dignose you as? And also, do you take vitamins? I mean, like high doses of them? And the right combo? I don't know if that would help, as it sounds pretty severe. Good luck....
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freshlaundry
replied on April 23rd, 2009
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vitamins
I take a multivitamin as well as a calcium supplement, vitamin E, flaxseed oil, and I used to take B vitamins, but heard from my roommate that they make dreams more vivid and recently cut them out and am waiting to see how effective that is.
I have the cheapest possible health insurance through my mom, but no money to pay the copay, and she flips out when she gets bills about how I am irresponsibly using my health insurance, even if it's just my annual check-up (which is all I've dared to go to for a year or two). So i was hoping to use the "ask a doctor" function for suggestions before actually seeing a specialist. Plus I wasn't sure which kind of specialist to go to...
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Agentlb
replied on April 23rd, 2009
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hmmm
I get that. I am from Canada, so we have it a little different here. But I was in the states for school for the past 5 years and not once did I go to the doc there. Hmmm. I still find that your health and wellbeing are more important than being in debt for a little bit. If this affects you that much, don't wait. We only live once. And if you go to the doctor in a year or so, and he DOES have a cure, you will be so mad at yourself for having wasted all this time and energy and frustration on it. But I do think you should ask the doctor online first, so he can advise you of what specialist to go see, or perhaps even has theories on how to help you. Keep trying online, but whatever you do, don't give up and just let it take you over.
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cwilliams1218
replied on April 30th, 2009
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The Same
Wow, reading your post here I felt like someone had gone into my head and taken out my thoughts. I am in the exact same boat as you.

My dreams are insanely vivid and realistic. Most of my dreams take place in the same handful of locations and involve some of the same people each time. When I go to sleep, it's like I'm just visiting another part of my life. My dreams are so realistic and vivid that I really do feel maybe my subconscious is having an out of body experience or something.

It doesn't matter how much I sleep or how little, I am always tired. I really feel I am always so tired because my brain feels like it hasn't actually slept. When I am having these vivid dreams, I think my brain is assuming that my body is really awake and experiencing all of this, so when I really do wake up in "real" life my brain is like: what the hell? when can I rest dammit?. This is really frustrating.

I say to everyone that sleep is like a drug to me. I can't get enough of it, I think about it all the time, I love it, when I don't get my sleep I get pissy and angry. When someone tries to wake me up and cut me short of my precious sleep I get extremely angry. Comparing sleep to an addictive drug is the best way that I can phrase it.
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