Everyone on this forum should read this. I'm 29 years old, IQ of about 139 (just to show I'm no idiot - I'm also not crazy - no medications but I do drink coffee and was smoking weed occasionally and had some light alcohol consumption - not during the event I'm about to describe. . ) Anyway, that was just to set the scene. About 1.5 months ago I was sitting in my living room and had what I called a flashback to a horrible event that seemed incredibly real. Each flashback seemed to lead to another, they were all highly elaborate and interrelated in a few ways. All of them were frightening and upsetting, seemed surreal but parts of the "dreams" I know occurred because I talked to people that corroborated that they did. Now here is where it gets weird(er). One of the flashbacks had me speaking to a former co-worker of mine, a highly religious co-worker. It's important to note that the conversation I had was framed as though it happened a year ago. He told me that I would experience a lot of deja vu in the future, asked me if I wanted a power/gift and told me I needed some help (I did at the time) and asked me what I wanted (a new job - my job was absolutely horrible, it was hurting my soul - I'm not religiously affiliated in any way). I asked him who he was, he told me I would figure it out. He said the deja vu was because something was changed in my life, something I didn't deserve to experience, and that I was basically placed back in time in order to redo my life from before the traumatic event. The gift of seeing the future was only so I could see through what I was about to go through, thus making it more bearable - this comment was preceded by him asking me if I wanted to know what happened - I said yes, he asked again in a stern voice if I wanted to know, I said yes and then I became aware of the horrible event in one of my flashbacks. He told me I was tough and for my pain (of knowing) I would be allowed to see my future. I told him that sounded great, I would use it to make a bunch of money - he said you won't be able to but could try - I found out later the future was just my future and only a few minutes or hours in advance. I'm covering a lot of ground here because the conversation was long and bizarre. Anyway,I spent the next 45 days, today included, experiencing what I believe I have already experienced. I should note that the next day I went for a walk a saw a hawk descend to literally right in front of me - I live in San Francisco - it just sat there and looked at me for a few minutes. Since I was 16 the hawk has been my spirit animal for reasons beyond the scope of this article. Anyway, it picked up a mouse and flew off into the sky - I had just left a church for the first time in 15 years. I immediately remembered why I saw this, I was the mouse and the hawk signified God, I was being taken away. My co-worker had warned me that I needed to leave my job, stop using drugs and find my true path in life otherwise I would see a snake in the hawks claws signifying that god had chosen to save the evil in me (my choice, not his) instead of the good in me. This is getting a little long winded but I think all of us share something in common - we all have experienced something that we did not deserve and have suffered for it, we all had our lives changed - we were sent back to before the event in order to relive our lives without the event. The deja vu flashback is I don't want to say it, but god's way of letting us know something, probably that he exists or is here to help, but also to show us what could have happened, as a warning for the future. I should also mention I've had 4 interviews for new jobs in the last two weeks. So, whatever you think, my life has been changed, I got my wish and for that I have suffered.