ive beendepressed off and on since i was 16 im now 25 my depression has gotten worse and i have drastic mood swings one daye im fine and the next day im ripping my mothers head off for stupid reasons or things that happen two days ago my mother is afraid to talk to me because she doesnt know what kind of mood im going to be in or if im going to loose it on her . i also have alot of anger and resentment towards my mom and when i get upset i get very angry and i break things, i use to cut myself when i was really angry not to kill myself but just because it was make the tension and anger go away and then i would calm down i also pull my hair and hit things when im very frustrated, i get irritated with ppl., some days im fine and others im just irratated and annoyed and i dont even know if theres a reason why, i snap at the people i love i find it hard to have as normal relationship with a man i push guys away from me and tend to show no emotions at all or i get too sensitive and over react over stupid things. when im at work customers feel like im giving them attitude not the people i work with but just customers and i find it hard to hold a job because of my so called attitude or depressions. the thing is some days im completely fine and live a normal happy life hang out with friends and everything is okay and other days i just come home upset or wake up upset and im just irritated and miserable and some days im so depressed i just cry all day and think suicidal thoughts . this is ruining my life and i dont know what to do anymore i feel like im so screwed up and im starting to feel like im two different people im worried i have bipolar or something worse and when i talk to a doctor they dont take it seriously i need help and i dont know where to go

thank you