Hi, I would rather not be diagnosed with depression, however, my life has been heading towards this stage where I have needed to ask for help. Reluctantly, but honestly I don't think I can handle my feelings on my own anymore; I am feeling suicidal more and more frequently. The only thing stopping me is the lack of ways to commit suicide without pain, and my family, although even then I am on the verge, feeling increasingly less self-worthy as I get older. Things have happened in my past such as abuse, and I am over them for the most part, despite worrying a lot that this may be one of the reasons I feel so down. I also keep twisting reality; by this I mean believing that we do not exist, and that I should just die because I don't actually exist. It's weird. My main question is, what is wrong with me? Is it depression? (I feel it about once every two weeks for a few days or so) and most importantly, what can I do about it?
Hi, and thanks for your medical question on eHealth forum!
I am sorry for the late reply. This can be due to depression or due to post traumatic stress disorder since you have been through a lot in the past. The best way to deal with this is to immediately get this assessed by a psychologist. You may need medication, behavior therapy, and other forms of counseling to get this treated.
However, treatment is possible and with proper diagnosis and treatment you should be fine. Hope this helps. Take care!
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