I have read all these posts and like most of you it feels when I am reading them like "Did I write this?" I have been dating my fiance for about two years now. Last July he proposed and I of course said yes because I love him with every thing I have. Well ever since I said yes to him he said I have changed. Well I guess it really put it all in to prospective for me where I began to think can I really ride this roller coaster for the rest of my life. I mean yes I love him but don't I deserve to be happy and lead a normal life??? Like this what to say and what not to say..... So basically cater to them their whole life forget about your own feelings or at least hide them and basically be there complete support system and be careful not to set them off because you would hate for them to become violent with you.

I have never been so depressed and unhappy in my life. I have never felt so low and like such a horrible person. He hates the fact that I am so independent. That is something I have prided myself on my whole life. I am 25 I have an 8 year old daughter I own my home and I have a truck and a car and I achieved all that on my own.....so he constantly throws it in my face that this is your house your car your carpet ect ect ect...... I never say anything to him about the things being mine. I am and always have been open to what's mine is your we are getting married so..... I don't know some days I think that I am mentally stable enough to deal with him and some days I just want to give it all up just so I can relax and smile and not have to wonder what he will be like today. I am sure that this has taken a toll on my daughter also because kids aren't stupid. I know she can see I am not as happy as I was. I know it hurts her feelings that he will leave the room if she is eating her food to loud. I know she can tell that I am overly stressed out and all I want to do is sleep but I can't or he will be mad at me. I hate the fact that I have to wait until he gets home to see how his day went that way I know how my night is going to be. I don't know how many times i have sent my daughter to her grandparents house cuz I knew she didn't need to be around to see this episode. I have asked him to leave several times because I get to the point I can't take it any more and that I just want to be alone!!!! He's over whelming and I now think that I need mental help. I have never thought that before ever!!! Anyways every time i ask him to leave he never does just stays away from me (We have a Big House) for a couple of days and does a bunch of nice things around the house and wait until I am not mad any more and plays on my feeling like are you really sure that you want me to leave. You do love me don't you. Well yes of course I do and he knows that but I( think it is unfair to him that I can't deal with him some days. So I think it would just be better if he leaves. If he would just actually do it when I ask him to I would be fine. It would hurt at first but I think my life would be alot more simple and relaxed and fun if I was alone with my daughter. But he won't leave and so he waits until the point where I miss him but he is still there so when he asks me if I want him gone I don't anymore. If he would just go when I get to the point that I miss him because I do love him he won't be there for me to tell him those things and I will eventually get over it and I can move on with my life.

O crap maybe i do need mental help. Give me some pill that makes me happy all the time no matter how much I am put down maybe then could I lead a normal happy life with a fiance'/husband with bipolar disorder. HELP ME I NEED HELP!!!!!