Over my life, I've been told countless times I have an over active imagination. I used to have imaginary friends based on people I'd seen and liked (e.g. the Doctor from Doctor Who). When I was younger I never really had real friends, I could keep myself content for hours just imagining that I was having conversations with my favourite cartoon characters.
The thing is, I'm nearing 18 now and I haven't grown out of it. I get into this obsessive state over celebrities that'll last months, for example, for 5 months now it's been Anthony Hopkins, so obsessive that I have seen 33 of his movies during this time. I won't pretend that I'm talking to him, but I will literally see myself as him. I will do things as simple as walking to the shop and in my head I am in his body. I will copy mannerisms and I will imagine somebody walking beside me, and I'll have a conversation with them in my head, or perhaps mutter under my breath. I will always imagine this, even unconsciously so, it's just stuck in my head that I am him.
This creates a problem for me at college, as I find it hard to concentrate. I will try to listen but my mind always wanders elsewhere, imagining another conversation in my head, again with myself as another person, or perhaps I'll imagine myself as a character of his, e.g. Hannibal Lecter.
Seeing movies with Anthony Hopkins in fills me with a huge sense of contentment, it makes me feel relaxed, in the same way that imagining myself as him does. I feel happy this way, and on the off occasion I say to myself "I'm not him", I feel incredibly lonely and down.
I also feel I should mention I am not socially awkward in any way, I find it very easy to talk to people, I just prefer my own company to being with another person. Nobody knows this, although needless to say everybody knows I like Anthony Hopkins.
What's wrong with me? Do I need to see my GP about this, or will he think I am wasting his time? Am I crazy?
Also apologies if I have put this into the wrong category, but I don't know where else to put it.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, I really appreciate it.