I am 16 years old. I am not on any sort of drug or alcoholic substance.
At about 12 years old i always felt sick. I always had stomach aches and migrains and my concentration was depleting. that lasted a few months and then i became severly depressed. I started to notice people around me and i always felt like they're staring at me and whispering about me.
That "awareness" has gotten worse and now it is all i hear and see. I am always thinking about how people are trying to hurt me, even though they dont know me. i keep to myself completely and i do not have any friends anymore. I used to be popular and happy and skinny-and now im heavier and solitary and miserable.
I am paranoid about everything. I cannot sleep at night because i feel like there is someone watching me. i have racing thoughts all the time- it is never quiet, even when im in an empty room.
These past 2 years...
-i say things without even thinking about it. it can be something totally random, like an answer to a question someone asked me yesterday
-my skin is always tingling, like bugs in my skin and it does not go away
-i have created people and act as if they are real. i talk to them and i can hear their replies (not audibly... more like sensing what they reply)
-sometimes i feel ecstatic like the world is turning my way, like nothing can go wrong
-sometimes i feel evil. just evil and like a mad genius
-most of the time i feel empty, but more like an anvil is sitting in my chest cavity and my head throbs
-sometimes my eye twitches or my hand, involuntarily
-i feel like im a psychic and i can fix everyone's problems, when i always end up making things worse, i blame them, like its their fault things didnt turn out the way i said, like they didnt hear me right or did something else out of spite
-i am almost always short of breath
-i have poor consentration
-my vision is a bit blurry
-my hands or feet have like an internal itch like they want to do something, like when im near someone, my mind is telling them to hit that person, or when i have a piece of paper, my hands want to tear it to bits
-when im walking around school or walking home, i hear people calling my name or whispering it, but i look around and no one is there
-sometimes i see worms or spiders crawling on my face when i look in a mirror, i look away, then back at the mirror, and nothing is there
-sometimes it looks like my face is melting when i look in a mirror
-a few days ago i was lying in bed and my vision went black. I saw an older woman with an axe. she held me down with her knee and then she cut my head off. i couldnt scream but i felt a freezing cold rush to my neck and she dragged me off into a forest of some sorts by my hair. just as she approached the trees, the orange walls of my room faded back into my vision and my neck was ice cold. i had been awake the whole time because i could see the faint glow of my digital clock in the distance the whole time.
please help me because i hate living this way and i miss how i used to be. i would love more than anything in the world just think and feel like a 16 year old girl, not the nightmare that is my life. please help
From reading your post, it sounds as though you are experiencing Schizophenia. Have you sought the help of a therapist? If not, you may want to do that. Finding the right medication can be difficult, and a trial-and-error process may have to occur. It is important to be open with the psychiatrist, reporting what symptoms and side-effects are occurring, so the doctor can help to find the best medication to meet your needs. It is also important to learn the contraindications of certain medications, such as the effects of alcohol or sunlight on the effectiveness of the medication.
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Hi!What you talking about is without doubt schizophrenia.I would like to help you,but the most important thing is that you are helping yourself.The moment you understand what you feel,hear,act isn't normal is the moment to help your self and go to a therapist.I know this kind of problem ,because my brother in law have had the same symptoms .He is being treated and now he is better and he understand he was ill,he feels the difference.
I wish you the best.I hope this helps.9(sorry about my English)
I went through all that when I was 20 and if I was you I would get help like as soon as possible before it gets worse. I kept my feelings to myself unfortunately and didn't tell anyone what I was experiencing. My health got that bad that they had to section me under the mental health act for 6 weeks in a mental hospital. This may have been avoided if I had sought help from a psciatrist earlier and they prescribed me medication... instead I just let it get worse and worse, college said I had to be treated and then I saw a psciatrist and within about 3 weeks a social worker came round and sectioned me. So my advice to you is get help as soon as possible from a psciatrist (gp can refer you) sometimes a referral can take 2 months so explain to your gp the severity of your hallucinations and then may be able to get someone to see you quicker.
Do see a psciatrist because you definately need to be on medication which a therapist or counsellor cannot prescribe for you.
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