hi,
my names natalie.
I'm 14 years old.
Last year my best friend died of a stroke and i also previously lost my sister to cancer. I haven't ever had much of an appetite so no one ever notices when I'm not eating. I don't like eating and now even being around food makes me feel sick. I always look in the mirror and check how I look and i always seem to look fat but my friends seem to think i am way too thin. I am worried because each time i think i'm getting fatter they think im getting thinner.
I am worried about if i actually have an eating disorder which has been suggested to me before. I don't know what to do because i need to keep losing weight it's as if i can't stop which sounds utterly ridiculous but it's true. I can't help it but just being around food makes me feel disgusted. If i do get hungry i eat lots then i end up being sick though i don't do it on purpose i just sort of happens is this an eating disorder.
I honestly don't know what to do but my friends seem so concerned i wonder if you could help me. IS it so wrong that i want to be thin and look like a model does. I love fashion and I know if i lose a little bit more I will be one but i know what I am doing isnt healthy though i'm not sure what to do.
If i try and stop I only feel worse and then I get all depressed
Please of you have any advice or tips ar anything to say please reply.
Luv natz .x.