I believe im developing an anger issue...and its only getting worse. Probably from the amount of stress building up from work and home and the non existant sleep. I have been trying my hardest to cope with everything..but nothing is helping. I have no money..and my job is giving me a pathetic whopping 20 hours a week. How am I supposed to live off that? And whats even more pathetic…is im still living at home with my rents! as far as job searching goes? No luck! I have no one to help me financially..im on my own. My friends are non supportive..and only make me feel like sh*t when I cant attend fun activities that cost money..which I desperately want to do. Now i think they consider me as just a "whiney brat" When alls i really needs is just some help. I dont know what to do! I cant seem to catch a break. And it seems that all the years I have been suffering and just shrugging everything off is catching up to me. Im so hateful now. I used to be so sweet and helping and caring. Now..im snappy and bitter. I know everyone is noticing it..and i just wanna disappear because im ashamed of myself. My patience is non exsistent! I have yelled, screamed, and thrown objects out of anger! I have scared my one year old pup so bad that he p***ed himself! I dont want to hurt anyone or break anyones valuables..but nothing seems to ease my anger. Im such an angry person now..that it makes me wanna cry all the time because i never wanted to be like this...but i cant help it. It feels like theres is a ton of bricks sitting on my chest. I know I need help…but the little health insurance I have..doesn’t cover mental health. Go figure. What do I do…before I hurt someone or myself? Am I really honestly better off in a mental home?…cuz right now…that sounds like the dream resort.
Honey you are under alot of stress..It always helps when there is some kind of support around..DO you have a church that you can go to for assistance? Where ever youlive you can go on line and look up free mental health assistance, just about everywhere there is some kind of help..Please do that..
Hey, your so called friends aren't much of friends so you're better off without them..A true friend would be there for you no matter what..Going out can be fun but so can staying home and making dinner,watching a movie or putting on some music and dancing around..
Can you take state testing to see what might be available working for the state? What type of work do you like to do? there are many sites I can send you to job search as this is what I do all day long..I seek clients for field staff..
Your poor puppy--you'll need to love on it and you'll see the pup will love you back no matter what..