I feel for you because I also was addicted to pain meds. If you can't ween yourself down yourself, there should be some resources out there that can offer you some help. Life is worth living without trying to escape the reality of it. I know sometimes our daily lives can become so overwhelming and we feel that medication is the only way out in order for us to go into a non-reality mode. But, you are only passing up the chance for a future that could be a good one for you. Now days with a drug free workplace, there is a chance you will be ranomly tested or not get a job at all. Get back to reality and make something of you future.


In My Thoughts,
Carrie

Life is way worth living and not being controlled by a damn pill. Luckily I have insurance and a really awesome doctor who is helping me out a lot. I hope you find the same, it can only end when you say enough is enough. I'm addicted to oxy and going through a program to get off, you may suffer from a psychological disorder too which a lot of cities provide free clinics for that. You should look into that if money is a matter and try something such as prozac, paxil or zoloft. You are better than a pill, it's just the pill is telling you otherwise. Be strong.