its a good long story, but ive been searcinh for answers for a good 7 and a half months now..

in april 2008 my boyfriend and me split due to him moving to America for 4 months, we decided that when he coems back we would make a proper go of things..

after 2 weeks of him leaving i was still grieving, but i then met my current boyfriend who i have been with for for nearly 8 months now

my heart is saying no but my head is saying yes..i jumped straight into a relationship after my ex without even thinking..i just wanted a distraction to take my mind off him...i need to break up with my current boyfriend but i just cant..i know how much he loves me and how sensitive he can be. He's been hurt in the past and i dont want me to be the next one.

im mentally abusing myself, im not happy, im not the same person i was a year ago..its killing me...ive been crying myself to sleep every day for the past 9 months

i dont even love the boy im with now, i cant break his heart..i know how much it would break him

this may sound crazy but the only time it feels right is when we have sex, that has an affect on me where im all over him like a rash..but after its just back to basics..

how can i tell him i dont love him without beraking his heart? there's no chance of me getting back with my ex, he's moved to America now (thats how much i hurt him)

anyone please help me, im dying for some answers

thanks, Paige