Are you by any chance in school? Most, if not all colleges/schools offer psychiactric help for free. If not, schools are able to recommend you to places on a sliding scale which can help you pay for it at a lower cost.

I'm sorry to hear that you are in such a rough place right now. I agree, I wouldn't take st. john's wart if you intend on being sexually active without using another backup form of birth control like a condom.

I'm not sure of any other natural remedies, but I hope you are able to find some help to pull you out of this. Taking a warm bath or going on a nice walk through the park always helps me.

Well, just a quick thing...B.C. does have depression as a side effect. Not all women experience this, but it's a possibility. So, that may be aiding in the feelings you've been having.

College seems to be a tough time. Even though you are surrounded by people, it's hard to develop strong relationships (at least I felt) that will be supportive of you during times like these. Like the above poster, I would encourage you to see what your school offers for you.

Can you call home and talk to someone there just to vent every once in awhile? That can also help relieve some stress.

:: hugs ::

Thanks for your replays. I decided i would try to St Johns, and if that doesnt help see if the college offers any counceling or anything. I call home, but i dont want to worry my family with my problems. I feel like its hard to develup a strong relationship with anyone here too. Im not sure if the bc is causing the depressoin, and all i have had is problems with it since i had it put in, i wouldnt doubt it if it was causing it. I think its mainly the stress from living alone, working having no one close to me stuff like that.. I hope the St Johns helps alittle

I know everyone has their own personal story, but I just wanted to give you some input about SJW:

My dad took it for awhile to relieve the "down in the dumps" feeling. My mother told me he had to stop because if he didn't continue taking it, it made him feel worse. I just want you to be careful when you take things because can you imagine feeling even more poopy??

Since you are enrolled in school, here are some things you can do to pick yourself up every now and then:
-go to counseling (yeah, we covered that)
-go to the health office to see if they can give you any insight of the BC
-work out at the on-campus facility (meet some people that go there regularly, AND working out released endorphins...those make you feel happy )
-join some clubs (I don't mean psycho clubs but something you're genuinely interested in)
-join some study groups (if they are available...you maintain good relationships with people if you are all working on the same thing...it's a group mentality thing)

Good luck, and keep posting if that helps you- you've got a forum full of people here to listen to you.