I have been suffering from depression for a quite a long period of time.
I decided because I cannot talk to anyone I decided to use this message board.
I have been feeling right low and wanted to commit suicide quite a few time and on some occassion I have tried to carry it out.
I cannot understand why I feel like this but I wanted to tell someone how I feel.
but I thought this would be a good start because I know that some of you might be going through the situation.

examples of how I been since started with depression

loneliness even were somebody is there.
suicidal thoughts wishing I was dead and examples of how to kill myself
emptiness feeling feeling that I don't exist.
numbness
blaming myself for things I have done.
appolgising saying sorry for thing that I even have not done.

I am on antidepressant medication
and I see a phystrist and a Cpn nurse

just feed up feeling Like this
thanks
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