Depression, running away from life

You dont fit in because you function at a different level then the people around you. Do you know what it is you love to do? what you need to do? what will bring you closer to your longterm goals? do you know what kind of environment you need to be happy? Those things are determined when you know where you belong

That is the first step, realizing. The second step is committing yourself TO yourself. The third step is the hardest...finding out how to get there. Finding a school or trade to get into so you can get your education and have what you specifically need. The fourth step is living your life with your new decisions! The fifth step is enjoying it.

Thankyou, that really helped.{ Do you know what it is you love to do? what you need to do? what will bring you closer to your long term goals? do you know what kind of environment you need to be happy?} I guess what I need to do is study in school to get a good job at the end and a promising future. But I feel so pressurised by my parents to get good grades, ie all a*, but to be honest I'm not really sure what I want to do in my life. I'm always depressed, whenever I have to revise or do homework I always put it off. I want to live in a good environment, one where the people around me are positive but at the moment everybodys so negative including myself.

I know what I need, want, and create in order to survive. It took me around ten years to figure it all out. And so far it seems youre on the right track...I have trouble studying and applying myself to subjects I dont like. I surround myself with subjects I love to excel in, and learn about the things Im not too caring towards, and by learning more I open myself up to the beauty of its mechanism and decide, hey, I could use this in my life too
But believe me...I have more than half a lifetime of reoccuring depression that takes me away from the world for a period of time, whether thats a few hours or a few months, where I dont see the world, I dont speak to anyone I know and I dont function well as a human being, all is lost and escape prevents from further destruction. Life can be quite frustrating when it doesnt go your way, or when its too much for us to handle. The important thing is always bringing oneself back to remember what was once so important to us. Thats when I get back to reality and excited about my future I really want you to experience what this feels like, based on your experience that Ive read, you didnt deserve anything thats been thrown at you. Because of this, you deserve to rise to your full potential. Takes one to know one.

Respect yourself for what you are and the world will automatically follow. Usually people with common interests come together and form a great group to learn, hangout and have fun with. You can also look for the same and also leave some space for other people to approach you. Don't be in a nutshell, let yourself open and feel life as it comes. You will find baskets of joy in the little things that you do joyfully.

I try to be more open with people, and to be confident with who I am but I find it so hard to be myself, that I end up just isolating myself away from other people. So I can't really find people with the same interests as me.
And as for studying to be honest I don't enjoy any subjects I do at the moment. I see school as a pure waste of time, something I'm forced to do, until the age of 16. Everyone at my school is so concerned with their education, I'm just lost and rather hopeless. I don't really see myself having a future. I'm not one of those people who's always had a dream, like going to uni and then getting married etc. I don't know what I'm studying for in life, I want to drop out of school cause I'm not motivated to be in the position that I'm in now.

Everybody has to be at school to study to make a basis for the future. You have a long life to live ahead. Career, boyfriend, family, all has to come to you yet. It is so very important to be yourself but at times you can even enjoy what other people like to do. You should not seem snobby to them, be friendly and open.

As far as study is concerned, I must say it is very important to know where you want to be a few years later in your life. You either want a settled career and life or you just want to wander about. If your current subjects seem so boring to you, why don't you switch to the subjects that you would like studying? Your motivation has to be intrinsic; it has to come from within you. If you prefer maybe counseling can help you.

franky, how about me?
i also have the same problem like runaway_girl. my friends away from me because my family background. i'm a broken home and they suddenly go away from me.
and from the first i'm never like my subject in college, i was forced by my parents. and i on't have a dreams to my future, i'm always crying with my situation, i'm always angry with my situation. i feel like a dead man.
do you think, what i'm supposed to do now? to my future. please help me to franky, thanks.

I would also advise you to focus on your studies and future building. Be yourself, have that positive attitude always on the high. People who understand you will come to you and be your friends. Hand on and stay spirited. Whatever has happened in the past cannot change. Just try to make things better for the future.

Tell your parent not joking tell them tell them

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Why would you tell your parents
They wouldn't understand

you sound just like i did at school. first things first .. everyone has a per pose of living! don't cut your arms!!! your precious skin although it seems like it helps at the time you arms will become scard! i used to cut my arms and freeze burn my leg and oh how i regret it i now have scars all over my arms and a burn scar on the side of my knee and now i look back and regret it so much! i now have to live with a face theses scars for the rest of my life i also overdosed i was rushed into hospital.. do you no what it feels ilk to fall in and out of conciseness while your body fights to keep you alive but your mind is shutting down its the worst feeling to ever go through! then to be told at the hospital that i have to sort my life out of ill go into a mental home because i was so young just so i can't hurt myself. its not worth it! and school we all hate it! some more then others and these popular girls well let me tell you something all the popular girls that made me feel like **** at school i laugh at them now they rewind my education but i have my own flat the best partner in the world and a amazing family and all of them well there nothing! they move about still in and out of friendships and relationships honestly its like they havnt left school! don't rewind your education like i allowed mine because if u get it right now then thats it its behind you i had to rewind my free years of education at college because i wasted my school education when i could have full filed my dreams at college i had to give that up to improve my GCSEs etc there a lot of people that are going through worse or better in life your main goal should be you making you happy enjoying like making yourself feel good and trust me friends or not you can be happy! just live every moment like your last do spontaneous stuff that give you a frill and enjoy yourself while your young! i was abused at 12 that took away my childhood and i wish i could have that back don't let petty people get u down show them all wrong! sorry for the long reply! x

No its ok. Thanks. I no what you mean about the scars, I cut myself and now I have scars all down the left side of my lower arm. Its awful I really can't bear to look at it. I'm 15 and I've started smoking cause all the girls at my school smoke, it makes me feel like I fit in even though they don't know I do it. Its stupid to act this way but I can't help myself. I know I shouldn't waste my school education or ruin my gcses but I have no motivation, and no future career in mind. I want to drop out, all the teachers and the students hate me. I'm not happy at my life at the moment, sometimes I feel like I'm throwing my chances away other times I don't care and just hope for the best. I mean I've got exams coming up and I'm not even revising cause I just don't see the point anymore.
I no very well that I could kill myself really quickly with a drug overdose.

Depression is very dangerous disease for mental health.don't think about the matter which gives you a stress,make yourself busy with your friends and family.meditation is also good to get back from depression.

you don't need to fit in people should like you for you! don't try and impress any one! you seem like a nice girl with a lot of stress and concern and need and long to fit in when you don't notice but you do fit in your preventing yourself for noticing because your focused of other peoples opinions and honestly i just think you need a friend someone to talk to and that could be anyone! parent? or is there not one teacher u get along with? and old friends or grandparents? or pets? theres loads of free lines you can call to talk to people? and the strangers who are professional at counciling and can help ? and I'm sure you can talk to all of us on here and i think i can speak for us all when i say we don't mind a chat or giving advice. don't over dose really don't give ur life! please your so young and i promise things will get better one day could be tomorrow or years to come!but please don't take your life your so young .. x

Hey I don't think the problem is with you, it's not your fault that you feel that way, it's the world around you that's f***** up! You notice the state of the world, but your forced to partake when you see they are wrong, everyone tries to make you fit in. What's wrong with being different( and I mean it in a whole definition of that word.), they are the f*** ups. You need to embrace that feeling don't try to be happy (what's up with that? Why do we need to feel happy all the time?! Human beings have a much bigger range of emotions than the shallow happiness all the time.) Just let it be there when it is, meanwhile look at the girls in your school they are tools they will make agreeable wife's mothers workers skilful talented but empty minded. You are different you don't need all this, your not that easily satisfied, if it makes you feel better mock them, try to study to get revvenge on them, like you can play their game but you just choose not to, because your better than some silly school, do not cut yourself and don't commit suicide at least not yet wait until you start getting old ;-/ Maybe you need to travel and get away, save up for it, whenever you feel sad depressed whatever just embrace it, let it be. If you feel like crying lock yourself away somewhere and cry, it's ok. But always keep in your mind that once all the things are over, once you finished your exams you can do as u please. Remember your better than them. Respond if you have any questions or would like some help or advice.

I agree that the world is messed up around me, and its a shame that I have to live in it. I tried getting revenge on the girls I hate, but in the end it makes me feel guilty, and even more unwanted. I don't even remember the last time I smiled at school, or at home. I don't know about anybody else, but have you ever had that feeling where you just want to murder everyone around you who's constantly laughing or smiling because its so annoying? I know its awful but I just can't take it anymore. I wish I could travel away, save up but of course my parents wouldn't let me. I even contemplated running away a couple of months ago. I'd packed my bag , money and everything- so sure I was gonna do it but then I stopped myself at the last minute. Kinda wish I didn't know.