I have seen counselors, physicians, taken medications, changed my diet, improved my exercise, but I'm still depressed. I broke down at work today and yelled at one of my techs for no good reason. I had to call someone else in to do the shift. I hat my life, but in reality, I have a good one. I make enough money, have somewhere to sleep at night. Unfortunately, I would rather just fall asleep and not wake up. I have tried to overdose several times. Obviously uncsuccessul. I need some serious help, but I'm too embarrased to ask. It seems like in the past, I have been treated like it is all my own fault. Maybe it is, but I still feel isolated and neglected. I am 26 years old and have my doctorate, in a steady, well paying job. Why can't I get a grip? I just want to lay down in bed and never get up.