I've never posted one of these before. I just feel like I need to do something, anything to jolt myself out of this numbness. I can't seem to break the cycle. I've gone through this so many times in the past. At one time in my life, I thought I was beating this disease - but it came back. It always comes back. I make progress, and it really seems like I am going to finally break this - and then boom! there it is again. And it doesn't really take much to bring it back on - just some kind of interruption in the cycle of my life when I'm in a progressive trend. And of course, it always brings the poor diet and exercise habits with it that cause me to gain weight - and lots of it (to the point where I am now obese again after I had lost a lot of weight) - which exacerbates the problem to something that seems wholly insurmountable. How do I end this stupid cycle? I do I get out of this funk I'm in? Especially when it all just seems like an exercise in futility now.
I can't seem to even get my mind going toward some semblance of motivation toward fixing this problem. I've tried medication is the past, and it just didn't help. It made me feel worse. The only thing that has ever helped was exercising regularly and living better. But it's the getting to the point where I am actually making the motions to get to that point that I seem to be stuck on.
How do I get over the hump? How do I convince myself that it's worthwhile even though I've tried and failed so many times in the past?
I feel as though I just wrote this letter. I couldn't describe my depression any better. Although I can't offer much helpful advice, maybe knowing that someone else is going through what you are may help. Just remember, depression always seems to get better with time. I, too, gain an extraordinary amount of weight each time my depression returns and it's always a battle getting it off. I know you'll be able to get it off soon as you've done so in the past. I'll keep you in my prayers and know that the light at the end of the tunnel will shine through soon.
i ve been depressed for 1/2 my life. and i know how it feels, sometimes you have to force yourself in doing something that your not motivated in doing but you know its for the best.
i m really good with research. i m struggling with my weight, i ate for comfort and now i am obese also. i am trying to eat healthy even though my medication makes me hungry all the time.
start off with little things, like cleaning up the house is a form of exercise. try to keep your thoughts positive. there will be a day where your motivate and your ready to exercise.
but it doesnt take much effort to eat right. i stop eating so much fried foods, eating out, i eat small portions, more vegtables, and fruit.