I'm 44, work feet, have 4 kids and am single. I don't have any expectations of having an above average lifestyle and have come to terms with my mediocrity. I get a few hot flashes so I believe that I am perimenapause. I am wondering if depression can sometimes be confused with plain and simple boredom of the 'same ole routine day in and day out'? I began taking wellbutrin 4 months ago-100 mg once a day in the AM. I thought it was beneficial, at first because I quit "throwing myself in front of the train" to get people to accept me. I've discovered that my social barriers are lowered from the wb-basically I snap easier. I shock myself when I snap sometimes.
I also am taking 15 or 30 mg of temazapam to sleep at night. I've been on sleep med for 9 years. I have gone a few nights w/o the sleeping meds but I prefer to fall asleep faster and experience the deep restorative sleep that the meds provide.
I don't mind being alone anymore and I keep just a handful of friends. I know the cbt steps and want to do them informally w/o professional help-I don't have a flexible schedule with my current work and family schedules.
Anyway, without asking my MD, I'm wondering if anyone recognizes anything profound about what I'm doing or experiencing? I want to continue with the wb and the temazapam but if there is something that I should be taking or if I am overlooking some side effects, I'd appreciate it if folks in the same or similar situation can comment. Thank you