Well, I'm reaching out for some answers because I am scared, lonely and feel like I cannot talk to anybody. For the last ten years plus, I have had to battle with depression. Of course, I hate taking medicines, so when I could, I would stop. However, in January of this year, something happened to me that has never occured in my life. I get laid off and was suddently out of work. I paid for COBRA two months, but couldn't keep it going. Every bit of medicine came to a crashing hault!
After almost 6 months, I had gotten really bad. I do not cry when I talk to my mother; but this one night she knew the questions to ask that made me ball like a baby. I then had to go see a doctor (same one as I used to see and he is only chargin me 1/2 price since I don't have insurance.
Well, I talked to him, and told him about the voices and things in my head. He kept asking all of these questions, so in a nutshell, here is what a remember...........
* Voices are worse at night (tv can be on or off... like to turn it to Soundscapes for calm, but that wasn't working either.
*Voices were mainly in a conversation between the two of them..... kind of like a news show. Somebody always one thogh and would tell me to do things. ( I just blew those off).
* My roommate gets home from work around 12:45 to 1:30 a.m. I have clearly heard him come in and be on the phone or just talking and then turn the tv on. When I get up and go downstairs, there is nobody there.
The last several nights, I have had in depth conversations with him, just to open my eyes to a dark room and notbody home.
The doctor has me on 400 mg seroquel, 30 mg Klonopin, 300mg xr Wellbutrin, and 30 miligrams of Propanodol (which supresses bad memories). What do I do next???? I am scared!
